Personal Growth...

Invest in you, and it will transcend your entire life.

When I "completed" my physical transformation, I was still pretty jaded, dis-passionate, and not liking my direction. My mental toughness just wasn't there anymore. I needed something new...something more than physical...I needed to start changing myself on the inside. And not 2 weeks after I finished Insanity, I signed up to be a Beachbody coach...and Coaching. Changed. Everything.

For me, coaching and the emphasis on personal developing and investing in yourself was a game-changer. I quickly realized once I started coaching that this wasn't just about fitness and shakes. This was about taking control of your life. It taught me that self-care wasn't just physical. It was mental. It was emotional. It was about calling bullshit on your excuses and making massive changes. And it was about doing so in a supportive community. 

I quickly came to realize that I had massive changes to make, huge hurdles to overcome, and crazy dreams that I'd let myself lose site of. I had to dig into my past and figure out what experiences and beliefs were holding me back, why I beat myself up instead of built myself up when push came to shove. It was difficult and frustrating and emotional. But it was also worth it. I came to believe in the power of belief and optimism and what was possible for me if I was willing to go for it, and it was a crazy realization!  

most importantly, My attitude about myself has changed

When I started this process of personal growth, when I looked in the mirror, I legitimately didn’t see anything about myself that I was proud of. I didn’t feel intelligent, which is always something I prided myself on. I didn’t feel athletic or fit, and I’d always been an athlete. I didn’t feel attractive, in the physical sense or the emotional sense. It was so damn hard to look at myself and see anything that I really liked or was proud of. I couldn’t take a compliment because I just didn’t believe it. I remember that time period vividly.

But, personal development allowed me to change so much. I went from the person who stressed herself out so much, almost to the point of illness when I took prelims in my PhD program, who completely bashed myself and told myself how I wasn't good enough after the tiniest hiccup to someone who I was proud of. When I gave my first departmental presentation 9 months after I started doing consistent personal development, and my outlookwas 180 degrees different. It was like there was someone else inside my mind. I was able to be rational and put things into context in a completely un-melodramatic way, unlike my usual self-deprecation and critique. I caught myself thinking "I can do this. This is my strength." And I freaking believed it! There was no faking it. It was the honest truth. Cheesy as it sounds, I grew to love myself again. More than that, though, this faith and belief that I have in the practice of personal growth gave me something to share and something to, well, be about.

In the four years since I have made personal growth a daily practice and a daily habit, I have felt a greater sense of confidence and self worth than I have ever felt in my life. And yes it has waxed and waned with my commitment. But just knowing how I can feel about myself and knowing that doing things like showing up for myself mentally and physically can help me to feel that incredible sense of worth..that’s my why.  I have gone from pointing out every flaw, to not needing a mirror to believe I'm beautiful. Now, I look in the mirror and see all the things that I love physically about myself. Now, when I journal, I write about the possibilities in my life, about my strength, about my passion and enthusiasm instead of my frustration.  I want more than anything to share with people what is possible for their own lives when they invest in themselves, develop a true sense of worthiness and confidence, and learn who they are and what they want. 

I listen to podcasts, audiobooks, read, write, etc. I do 30+ mins every single day and the reason WHY I do these things is because I have and continue to see these kinds of leaps and bounds forward in my mental state. My confidence. My self-image. My ability to see my worth, value, strength. My ability to define my goals, my life, my passions, build the kind of life I want and be the person I want to be. And the crazy part is that the tools we need to make these kinds of changes are at our freaking fingertips!!! Yet, so few people take advantage of them!

If I had my way, personal development would be a class in school.

And trust me - it would be the most beneficial thing you've ever done. So don't be one of those many people who doesn't take advantage. Pick up a book! Listen to a podcast! Write out your goals, review your day, whatever! DO something every single day that improves your tomorrow and this time I'm not talking physical. Because it's the mental transformation that will change your life. Learn more about my #15minsforme movement here.

Progress is impossible without change, and those who cannot change their mind cannot change anything.
— George Bernard Shaw

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