This whole journey started for me while I was still in graduate school. And during that time, I kept asking myself, “How did I even get here in the first place?” I thought I loved the path I'd set myself on at one point. Science fascinates me. But, I've realized that in so many ways I wasn't being true to myself. It took 6+ years of schooling and busting my ass before I finally sat down and asked myself - "Is this what makes me happy? Is this where my heart is at?"
I had every reason to be happy and content with the path I had laid pursuing science. I loved the praise and recognition I got when I talked about my research and my career plans. But in school, I was anxious, jaded, un-enthused and some might even say depressed by my research, my classes, and my life. While my peers were talking about how "lucky" we were and how we had the "best job ever," I was instead trying to convince myself that I felt the same, and that I loved what I was doing.
For me, coaching really threw a monkey wrench into my life. I fell in love with it - and it really threw my life for a loop. It even got to the point that for me, I grew to resent it. It would've been so much easier for me if I hadn't found it. If I could have just continued on with my graduate program. Maybe I wouldn't have been happy, but at least I would have been content and not always searching for more.
I have been coaching, mentoring and teaching in some capacity I was in high school. As a soccer captain, an assistant soccer, a teaching assistant, and a Beachbody coach. And though I often say that coaching "messed up a lot of my plans," it really allowed me to take a good hard look at what I actually wanted in my life and how I wanted to spend my time. Coaching was so far from what I had planned for my life. How the hell could I make it fit? I didn't know how I could love something so much that was so far from what I had planned on doing with my life. So I tried to do it, and I burned myself out. I stepped away to re-calibrate my goals. I had lost the fun. I had lost the purpose, and I just saw the struggles I was having personally with rationalizing it.
It took me far too long to realize that coaching is part of my life, whether it fit into the plan or not. Coaching, fitness, personal growth - these are things that empower me and make me more passionate that anything I've ever felt. And all the crazy adventures and people I've met along the way have enriched and empowered me too. And as much as I tried, how could I possibly walk away from that? I wouldn't. I couldn't.
Coaching for me became a passion that I never knew I had, or I never knew I wanted. It's a way to pay it forward. To show people the kind of confidence and happiness we can find when we just invest in ourselves. When we just live authentically to our dreams and goals. For some people, that's easy. But for many (like me!) it's not, because that's not the status quo.
But the only way we can be at our best for anything in our lives is to feel our best. To be ourselves - authentically and fully. That's why I coach, because I have seen in my own life how quickly things crumble when you don't take care of yourself and how radically they transform when I do. I want that for everyone.
As soon as I realized how different I felt about coaching compared to science, I knew that something was wrong. So, I made one of the most difficult decisions of my life. I left my graduate program with my Master's degree, and started allowing myself to cultivate my innermost passions. More on that here. But, in this whole journey, I've also realized one very important thing...that I never have to fully stop following any of my passions. Science. Coaching. Any of it. I can do as much or as little as I want of those things. I'll likely never leave science behind. It will likely always play some role in my life, whether it's just the people I work with, or if I'm actually able to make science communication a part of my career. Only time will tell!
I created this website because I personally believe that when you make knowing and growing yourself a priority, it transcends the rest of your life. It opens doors and opportunities that you never even considered yourself. It allows you to create a life that you literally didn't think was feasible, practical or doable until you started fricken doing it. It gives you vitality, makes everything else more enjoyable, makes you more energetic, passionate, positive, forgiving, and gives you confidence and an inner strength that, like me, you may have been lacking. When you’re in this state of mind, you begin to believe that you can have anything you want in life. Not only do you begin to believe it, but you begin to create it.
This path I've been on has empowered me to live outside of my own conventions. I have enabled myself to be what I want, and pursue what I want, no matter what.
It's been a long time coming, but I'm finally there. And I want to do whatever I can to help you find that in your own life.